Ode to Beethoven...

Once in a couple of years you recover something that you have held locked in your heart and somehow forgot. Till you one day stumble across that loved and dusty part that lights your day... It can happen to you and it happened to me this week.

In a spur of the moment I bought a CD of Beethoven and when the longing tones of 'Klaviersonate Nr. 14 - Adagio Sostenuto' started. It drove shivers down my spine and something warm began to glow in my belly, spreading across my body and leaving me breathless and deeply moved. The soft longing tones of the piano, whispering about passion, longing, sorrow, unrequited love, consolation, hope, being alive, despair...so sad, so real, so close and so immensely beautiful.

For days on end I have replayed this sonate time and time again. And every time I hear it, different pictures form in my head and depending on my mood, I feel new emotions come crashing in like waves into my welcoming arms and heart. I have found myself a gift to remember. A gift that can recharge me like no battery can and soothes my chaotic mind to a peaceful, smooth mirror. A mirror that shows me light, hope, freedom and washes away my despair, my sadness and my solitude.

Long time no see...

Mmm long time no see. Time seems to be running out of control lately, just one flutter of my lashes and ‘Poef’ another week has gone bye bye. So much to tell, where to start…

Idols in Vlaardingen
A hot night a few weeks ago, Jack and I were making a lot of noise and a neighbor came running out into the street. I thought something like; “Oh oh, now we’ve done it.” Couldn’t quite hear what he was saying so we had to tune down the stereo (blasting big time)…still couldn’t hear him, so he had to come upstairs.
I was a bit drunk, well it was warm, the wine was cool and hell it’s summer once a year, so…he was talking to me and I was looking how his lips were moving. Not comprehending one little syllable that came out of his mouth. Finally like domino pieces falling in slow-motion, the words clicked. He was asking if I wanted to help them out and go into the studio with him to record a song. Ehhhhh of course I wanted to help, why not, wasn’t sure I could hold key, but I’ve never been into a music studio before so…why not. I always wanted to sing before a filtered microphone and there it was. Sang only a few lines, but it was fun and the result surprised me. Maybe I will become famous, maybe I should enlist for Idols, or maybe I just have to drink less wine.

Spring is def. over
My hormones are definitely in check nowadays. No drooling after mister Boss, cause I met misses Boss and that takes all the fun out of my sex fantasy’s, makes work a whole lot easier though, especially since I am sitting right across his desk.

Shopping spree
Today I joint the ranks of shopping addicted women… a shoe shop around the corner had a major sale, a pair of shoes for only 1 Euro….Woopy! So I dived into the madness and conquered 11 pair for me myself and I. No rules applied…elbows allowed, it was crazy, I tell you… Wanted to go to work afterwards, but I just sat on the couch and felt totally dazed… rows and rows of women with boxes full of all kind of shoes pilling out of them, women fighting over a pair of boots, children running up and down. Just pure madness… Not doing that anytime soon, but I’ve got my loot spread out before me and I’m one happy lady.